Almost two weeks sober. It was actually much easier than I expected. Maybe because I was ready to quit. The craving subsides with time. I crave it only in the evening or when I am bored. It’s manageable.
It is still hot. However, in the evenings it is cool and that helps with the morning temperature. I crave fall and winter. Summer is the most hated season by me. I hate the sun and the heat. That’s my Alaskan body.
Have not done art lately. I just don’t know what to say with my artwork. I am sure if I am patient it will come. I have been reading tons though. And that counts for something.
Work-wise I have to do two workshops this week. No matter how much I know the content I still get super stressed and anxious. Stupid stage fright… I hate to complain about it as I have been doing it for over 10 years. But every time it is still stressful. No confidence? Impostor syndrome? I thrive on creating things and helping people not doing workshops. But it is a part of the job so I have to. At least I am doing technology. Pedagogy I hate. So, I am safe there.
I continue walking a lot seeing how I cannot run. It is either too hot or my knee acts up. But walking 6 miles in the morning keeps me somewhat fit. I miss my 10 miles runs though. I was built for long-distance running. It takes me 5 miles to warm up (it is painful) but after 5 miles I am cruising.
Have been looking at renovation services. I really want laminate floors everywhere, an upgraded sink and faucet in the kitchen, and some tweaks to the bathroom. The floor would come first. It should probably happen before the rainy season… But I have to think it through as I have no idea how they would replace the linoleum in the kitchen and the bathroom. It might have to be gutted and renovated… I might have to wait on that. It could be that I would have to replace the toilet first… I know this is not exactly an exciting thing to write about but it is on my mind and thus on this page.
Other than that I am just waiting for the leaves to turn yellow and red. Hopefully, it will come soon.
