I know I am not posting every day but things of quitting hard so far. However, slowly I got to 1.1 bottles. I don’t know how I did it and I am afraid that with this amount I will crave horribly… Just a waiting game so far. But my brain needs to get used to less alcohol every day so that there is no alcohol withdrawal. Alcohol actually rewires your brain so it is the hardest part to get over and not think of your liver (I think it is secondary). The brain function is what impedes quitting. It can have horrible side effects in people who drink a lot for an extensive amount of time like delusions, tremors, and seizures. I am afraid of them even though I just drank wine (way lesser amount than someone who drinks bottles of vodka every day for example). It was impossible in the beginning when I tried to quit cold turkey for the third time. The first two times I did not experience any side effects at all. But I went to Alaska to visit one of the best friends in my life and our thing always was to drink wine in the evening and talk for hours… So, I slipped because I wanted to relive it. I did read somewhere on a medical blog that the side effects get worse every time you quit. I might have written it in my previous post but it begs repetition. Anyhow, I am where I am and proud of myself so far. In two days I will be just at one bottle and trust me it is a huge achievement. The road will get easier from there as my brain will be at ease with the tapering as it will be minuscule amounts that I will drink after one bottle comes. Wish me luck. I needed it more than ever.
