Today is rough. I am contemplating getting another bottle of wine… It’s not because of withdrawals but because I just need to feel numb. I think I am allowed to break down once in a while… It’s a hard journey and not always straightforward because it is a journey. At our work meeting today, my boss insinuated that I do nothing… I work behind the scenes with technology and it is not visible what I do like my co-worker’s work. Plus she is an overachiever and likes workshops, etc. I don’t. My boss wants to square peg me into a round hole to emulate them and it is not going to happen. I might be not as smart as them in general but I am way smarter than them in technology. I want to be left alone to do my thing. I am currently taking a class “Designing for VR” to get certification but of course that is once again not visible… Just tired of being overlooked and under-appreciated. I am contemplating getting another job but I bought my place and I can’t because of health insurance… No one will match it as I don’t pay a cent out of my pocket… So, I am there for that and have to endure the passive-aggressive and highly patronizing shit from my boss… I guess it is life and what you make of it. I really hope I do not succumb to temptation… but I do have to say that the work-life balance is good. So, that is also in the picture. I guess I just have to grow a thicker skin.
