It is all set in stone. I am going to Chicago to visit Laura for her b-day. I did not have to but I miss her and I really want to be there for her b-day.
I am finally over Aida’s bullshit break-up. Now I just feel sad for her that she resorted to bullshit to break off our friendship. Well, that’s it. I am laughing at it now instead of being in pain.
On another note: I still feel like I am living Groundhog Day because every day is the same for me and I cannot really change it as I have to walk my dog, I have to work, I have to read and do art on weekends. There is simply no room for change…
I am on FB now a lot. That’s because I need some kind of human interaction as I still work from home and only have work meetings over Zoom. That’s not human interaction. The funny but not funny thing is when I actually make my way to campus I don’t recognize real people from the Zoom meetings I had with them. That creates problems as I totally don’t know who they are and always extend my hand saying nice to meet you. Many respond favorably and with humor like “You met the virtual me now of course we have to re-meet in person. You are way taller than I imagined you.” But some are taken aback. And I feel for them and feel a bit ashamed because I completely blocked them out.
On the matter of being tall. It sucks as people remember me because of that and if I go to a store repeatedly even two weeks apart they think I just have been there. Sucks when I buy wine. They must think I am an alcoholic.
On the matter of health. I am re-learning how to do Pilates as I have Carpal tunnel on my right wrist and cannot put any pressure on it. Additionally, I have to re-learn how to run as I have a bum knee. I stopped for a year because of that and my exercise caused asthma. I am falling apart. Whoever said that in your 50s you wake up with pain is right. I would like to make a joke out of it but nothing comes to mind except being overweight and out of shape. Well, at least I am not cold every time as I was when I was 150lbs. That’s a plus. The fat truly keeps you warm. Plus hot flushes that feel like I am on Extasy. Blast from the past…
That’s all I have to say for today. Maybe tomorrow will bring some variety of experiences as I plan to go to the coast. Always makes me zen and accepting of the world in whatever state it is now.
