fog
Friday

8.7.20

Today I want to get drunk. And I will. Depression setting in. Maybe not really a depression as much as a need to change my life. I am sick of working the same job for 11 years. I hate my boss and my co-worker. I just can’t do it anymore. More and more I think of moving to Alaska. Small…

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heather lake
Thursday

8.6.20

I miss hiking. COVID is brutal in this respect. I am afraid that when I get to the trail there would be tons of other people and it ould be hard to pass them on a narrow trail. Opee and I go fast. We cloak a mile in 20 minutes. We both like to be fast as it feels more…

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bird pick
Saturday

6.13.20

Today I decided that I need to quit vaping. My lungs hurt when I run because I am vaping a lot since I don’t have to go outside to do it. Oh, the convenience of the roof over your head. I know it is going to be hell. I am on my last cartridge and I am freaking out already,…

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Sunday

6.7.20

A friend posted this in his newsletter called Katexic: https://katexic.com/ Elie Wiesel in his Nobel Prize acceptance speech: “I swore never to be silent whenever human beings endure suffering and humiliation. We must take sides. Neutrality helps the oppressor, never the victim. Silence encourages the tormentor, never the tormented. Sometimes we must interfere. When human lies are endangered, when human…

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fire pic
Thursday

6.4.20

I don’t post political content very often simply because I hate politics (especially now) because it makes me feel incredibly angry and powerless. But this article paints the picture of the racist, bigoted, authoritarian trump (I just can’t stomach giving him a capital letter) before he came to power. It shows clearly what many either have missed or disregarded for…

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fire pic
Saturday

5.30.20

Today we had a giant thunderstorm early in the morning. It was booming. Booming like crazy. I thought a war has started — the leftover feeling from when I was a child growing up in the Soviet Union during the Cold War. My dog, scared of thunder crawled closer to me in bed. It was an amazing feeling as it…

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Monday

5.25.20

Today on a walk with my beastie I came across a wandering stray dog in one of the neighborhoods of Hillsboro. The dog was beautiful but had no collar and had beginnings of what looked like mange and a wound on top of his tail. He did not come to me but came to Opee and Opee stood there not…

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after the rain picture
Friday

5.15.20

Day whatever into COVID pandemic. I don’t care what day it is anymore. In fact, for the most of the day, I thought it was Thursday and the only reason I came back to reality is that I got a notification on my cell to pick up the wine which I knew I scheduled for Friday. Everything is blurred and…

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stars falling
Friday

4.19.20

April already. Unbelievable. We have been in quarantine for a month. Drinking a lot mostly out of boredom. The time to slow down will come soon. Working from home. Love it. Wish I can find a permanent remote position. Watching a lot of Britain Got Talent and Hell’s Kitchen. Walking 10 miles a day with my dog. Sometimes running 4…

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heather lake
Monday

1.27.20

I came home from work early only to find out that my dog is laying by the window observing the shitty weather that we had for months now and refusing to go outside. I can’t say I blame him. It’s shitty — raining and cold. What I am wondering about is how long can he last without doing his business.…

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